Days like this, I feel anxious to a point it makes me feel nauseous.
Days Like Today
Yesterday was a really stressful Monday from start to finish. My body felt too heavy to drag from the bed and I even told my husband that I don’t want to go to work. But, I did anyway because bills speak louder than words.
On my way to work, I was checking on my phone notifications when I saw that the helper who scammed us before turned the story around to make us look bad and that we deserved what she did to us. I WAS FUMING.
My heart was literally banging inside my rib cage because of rage. I was shaking even. Thank God for my carrier’s poor Internet service that I wasn’t able to reply right away. I took the time to calm down and rehash what I read over and over so that when I get to the office, I can compose a humane reply (even if I think the other person does not deserve it). I posted it and the scammer deleted her post hours later. Nothing a good dose of truth slap can’t handle.
Since I spent most of yesterday morning so caught up in negativity, I wasn’t able to focus on other tasks the rest of the day. I tried to lighten my mood the minute I got off work by watching Pretty Little Liars. Worked for a while but it left me with a really bad headache since I was watching while inside a moving vehicle.
When I got home, I was so hungry and my youngest was having a tantrum. I was so looking forward to going to bed just to get Monday over with.
I still felt off today but I’m working on making this day much more productive than yesterday. My thoughts are still wandering from time to time but I’m working hard to get things done if only bit by bit.
I don’t like it when my head feels like this. Like there’s too much buzzing and it feels like I have so many things to do, so many ideas, so many thoughts to explore. I know this is good (creative-wise), it’s just that I also feel anxious trying to keep up with my brain (crazy, I know).
What I Can Do
I had a light bulb moment while I was writing and maybe the best thing I can do is to write everything my head’s telling me then figure it out later. I just hope there’s something in there that can help us win the lottery (as soon as possible) or some idea that will make me rich just by sitting down. JK!