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Days like this, I feel anxious to a point it makes me feel nauseous.

Days Like Today

Yesterday was a really stressful Monday from start to finish. My body felt too heavy to drag from the bed and I even told my husband that I don’t want to go to work. But, I did anyway because bills speak louder than words.

On my way to work, I was checking on my phone notifications when I saw that the helper who scammed us before turned the story around to make us look bad and that we deserved what she did to us. I WAS FUMING.

My heart was literally banging inside my rib cage because of rage. I was shaking even. Thank God for my carrier’s poor Internet service that I wasn’t able to reply right away. I took the time to calm down and rehash what I read over and over so that when I get to the office, I can compose a humane reply (even if I think the other person does not deserve it). I posted it and the scammer deleted her post hours later. Nothing a good dose of truth slap can’t handle.

Since I spent most of yesterday morning so caught up in negativity, I wasn’t able to focus on other tasks the rest of the day. I tried to lighten my mood the minute I got off work by watching Pretty Little Liars. Worked for a while but it left me with a really bad headache since I was watching while inside a moving vehicle.

When I got home, I was so hungry and my youngest was having a tantrum. I was so looking forward to going to bed just to get Monday over with.

Moving Forward

I still felt off today but I’m working on making this day much more productive than yesterday. My thoughts are still wandering from time to time but I’m working hard to get things done if only bit by bit.

I don’t like it when my head feels like this. Like there’s too much buzzing and it feels like I have so many things to do, so many ideas, so many thoughts to explore. I know this is good (creative-wise), it’s just that I also feel anxious trying to keep up with my brain (crazy, I know).

What I Can Do

I had a light bulb moment while I was writing and maybe the best thing I can do is to write everything my head’s telling me then figure it out later. I just hope there’s something in there that can help us win the lottery (as soon as possible) or some idea that will make me rich just by sitting down. JK!

Until then!

Just ‘Cause It’s Saturday

I’ve not been in touch with my WordPress lately as there’s been so much going on in my life and on my mind. You know, the mundane stuff. But, since it’s Saturday and I have some free time on my hand (and I’m procrastinating on doing our bi-weekly budget), I might as well update my beloved site with these “unusual asks” I’ve found on Pinterest.

PS. Proceed at your own risk.

1. What did you want to be when you were a kid?

Well, I remember myself saying that I wanted to be the President of our country. Then, it changed to being a doctor. Then, to being an accountant. I ended up being a writer though. What do you know?

2. How tall are you?

I’m 5′ 3″ but I’m taller than most women so I’m not complaining.

3. Tea or coffee?

Well, I haven’t tried a lot of tea so I’m going to say coffee on this one.

4. Who is the last person you kissed?

My eldest son just before I left the house for work this morning.

5. What is your favorite breakfast?

Champorado or chocolate rice pudding (refer to photo below)! Just thinking about it makes me want to fast forward to tomorrow’s breakfast. 

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6. When is your birthday?

I will tell you but, then, I have to kill you.

7. When did you start your blog?

I started this one December 2016.

8. What is your dream job?

Getting paid doing the things I love. Like right now.

9. Celebrity crush?

Channing Tatum.

10. What would you do with $10 million?

I will buy a house and a car. I’ll establish a business I can run from home. I will get education, health, and life insurances. Buy properties and invest. And, travel the world with my family.

11. Do you remember anyone you hated 10 years ago? Does it matter now?

OMG, yes! Going back to the reason why I hated her is so laughable now. I got over it. She’s a Facebook friend now, actually. 

12. Do you have an enemy?

None that I know of. But, I’m sure there are people who have issues with me. I just wish they are brave enough to talk to me about it instead of talking shit behind my back.

13. Do you believe in destiny?

Yes.

14. Likes?

Eating, watching movies or series, reading, travelling, shopping and spending time with my family.

15. Dislikes?

Gossipmongers, backstabbers, users, and liars.

And that’s it! Done! I would’ve answered more questions but the work day is almost over and I still have to make our bi-weekly budget before going home. Until then!

Catching Up

It’s been quite a while since I wrote here since my life decided to be a little hectic the past few weeks. The stalker in you might be wondering what was I doing this whole time and, since I aim to please (just this time), I’ll indulge you with the gory details.

MARCH

I celebrated my 30th last March. Nothing big. Just food and family. Truth be told, I was dreading the day I’d be 30 (because, you know, it sounds old). But, I don’t feel any different as when I was 26. Emotionally, that is.

BECAUSE, F*CK (yes, I wrote that, one of the perks of being 30) I get all kinds of pain right now just for moving a couple of paces. Though I don’t consider myself the active type, I can jog and climb mountains before but now, two flights of stairs can kill me.

APRIL

Another birthday this month. This time, it’s my son’s 4th we’re celebrating. Originally, we were planning to do the celebration at a fast food chain but we figured it would be too impractical given that my son’s birthday was during the holy week and that the expenses would be too much. So, we decided to just decorate the house and cook food for the family. Then, after the holy week, we took them out to the mall to play and eat (repeat until fade).

This month was also a lucky month for me at work because our boss gave us a bonus and I got a raise from work. Thank God for answering our prayers.

MAY

Work these days is a little bit lighter because we’re almost done preparing for the annual event that our company will be participating on. By the second week, the bosses will leave for Macau for the event and we’ll be enjoying a short break until they return.

As for me, I decided to become my personal project this month. It’s been so long since I was able to focus on myself physically, emotionally, and intellectually. So, starting this month, I’m going to work on improving myself for the sake of it.

 

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So far, I managed to cut and color my hair (again, yey!) and took a selfie.

The following weeks will be dedicated to actively losing weight and improving my health (because I’m feeling a lot of aches and pain lately plus I get cough and colds more often). Hopefully, I can post a more decent picture one month after. I’ll keep you posted.

On another note, I also just finished watching Thirteen Reasons Why. My motive of watching a TV series is to give myself a break since it’s been ages since I watched any but this one left me quite disturbed. I was thinking of downloading and watching the whole GoT seasons again but I saw the Netflix ad for this series and was curious about Hannah Baker’s reasons why she killed herself so I watched.

Don’t get me wrong. The series was good. But, I don’t know, it left a mark. Maybe it was the intention of the whole series. I don’t know. But, I wish I watched The Devil Wears Prada instead.

She Got Fat 3

Okay, it’s time for an update on my weight loss goals.

The last time I weighed in, I was 61 kg. My goal weight is 50 kg so that will require a lot of diet and exercise for a long time. I tried to reduce eating and do some minor exercises at home but I really didn’t know and I felt like it wasn’t doing much for my goal that’s why I decided to try MyFitnessPal to monitor my calorie intake. I find it helpful for my weight goals because it helps me choose healthier foods over junk.

Before doing MyFitnessPal, my “diet” is just eating less during the day. Like, for example, I skip breakfast, I eat lunch, then I eat eggs or bananas for snacks, and eat less rice at night and more meat. I was confident I was losing weight doing this eating regimen until my last weigh in.

I really couldn’t believe my eyes. I was a kilo heavier. A KILO HEAVIER!

So, it turns out I was eating food with too much calories. Add to that a sedentary activity and there’s your kilo.

It’s been two weeks since I first monitored my calorie intake and I’m trying very hard to not go beyond the limit. The first week was hard but I’m getting the hang of it. The secret to not getting hungry is to spend your calorie allowance wisely. Choose healthier foods and if you’re getting a bit over your calorie limit, work your butt and do some exercise.

The mobile app of MyFitnessPal will really help a lot with your weight goals and this post is not advertising. It’s just that I really found it helpful for me. There are also other calorie monitors and fitness apps out there but this is the one that I tried so far. I chose this particular app to monitor my calorie intake because it has a really huge food database. Even McDonald’s food have records on their database so you won’t have to guess or constantly check for labels.

Anyway, I do hope my next weigh in would be less heartbreaking. My husband and I are planning to do some medium cardio exercise soon because we’ll be climbing a mountain come March. I hope that and my constant food monitoring will yield positive results soon.

Until then!

 

 

The Tale of My Plastic Rose

The Tale of My Plastic Rose

Valentine’s Day came a bit late for me this year but it was, indeed, worth the wait.

Earlier this morning, I was woken up by my 3- and 2-year old kids, Harley and Hilary. They just got back from Nueva Ecija where they joined their Tita Mary Rose to visit the Manalo clan.

Going back to my story, Harley gave me a flower as soon as he entered our room and told me, “Mama, meron akong flower para sa’yo!” (Mama, I have a flower for you!) So, I told him, “Wow, thank you!” Little have I known how far that plastic rose has traveled before it got to me. But, I was to find out soon.

So, I got out of bed and went to our living room where my husband, his mother, and his sister are waiting together with the kids. That’s when my in-law told me the history of the “flower”. My flower.

She told me that it was when they were leaving for Nueva Ecija when Harley noticed a flower vendor at the train station arranging his plastic flowers. One of the flowers fell near his feet where he picked it up and decided that he’s going to give it to me. He had the flower all the way to Nueva Ecija where they met the Manalo clan. I expect it was a very eventful day for the little kids that day since they met a lot of people and played even more.

When they were about to go home, he was looking for the plastic rose he got for me which, turns out, they forgot to bring. So, they had to go back and get the flower so he can take it back with him and give it to me when he gets home.

When I heard the story, the plastic flower meant more to me than an expensive long-stem red rose. As I was about to leave for work, he told me, “Mama, saan na yung flower mo?” (Mama, where is your flower?) I left it in the bedroom inserted in my notebook so I took it and told him, “Eto na o, dadalhin ko na.” (Here it is, I’m going to bring to work.)

I placed the flower in my bag and saw that he was really happy that I’m bringing it. At work today, as I was rummaging inside my bag for a notebook and pen, a colleague saw my flower and I told her that it was from my son. Actually, I really wanted to tell everyone and post something on Facebook but I don’t have a phone (it got stolen) so, instead, I did this. A post remembering one of our family’s best memories.

I really thank God for my family.

Kung Hei Fat Choi

It’s been tough for the past few weeks but we’re almost there, February!

I’ll be on holiday tomorrow since it’ll be Chinese New Year. Therefore, no work! BUT, of course, work never stops for us moms so I’m planning to go over our closet over the weekend, clean the house, do the laundry, give away old stuff, and throw out things we’ll never use. Also, I’ll cook Tikoy (Nian Gao or Chinese New Year cake) for the family and do some much needed movie marathon.

The family would’ve gone to Tagaytay but, unfortunately, the kids had a bad bout of HFMD so we’re going to stay at home until everybody feels better and maybe push through with our plans next weekend.

On another note, I’ve also opened my new online shop where I’ll be selling 100% authentic and high quality products for both kids and adults. It’s still new so it’s not perfect yet but I like the way it looks and I’m so proud of it. I’m planning to launch our very own shoes but I’m still finalizing the packaging so maybe that will be my goal next month.

January felt like half a year already but I’m so glad and thankful for all the things I’ve accomplished this month. I hope you had a productive month, if not, just keep trying. Like they say,

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Happy Chinese New Year!

She Got Fat 2

Remember my post about my plans about going on a diet? Well, today wasn’t all that bad (well, not as disastrous as the previous one I posted) as I’ve MOSTLY done the tips that I read.

HOWEVER.

The coffee thing. I can’t tolerate strong coffee. You know, the kind you buy from really expensive coffee shops OR the one that comes from really expensive coffee maker/dispenser. Earlier today, I opted to get my coffee from the office pantry. It was the kind you get from a really expensive coffee maker/dispenser. So, yeah, I ended up with sweaty palms and palpitations. Maybe milk tea will be a good alternative?

The exercise thing. I haven’t been able to do the sit-ups yet since I was too busy working during the day and too tired when I get home. Also, I’ve been suffering from sharp pains on my upper back the past few weeks so I do think I should lay this part off until I get better. Just to be safe. I do a lot of walking to and from work though. Maybe it helps burn off some of the calories?

The food department. I haven’t consciously reduced my food consumption and I’m guilty of eating a lot of sweets lately. I’ve been reading and writing non-stop and munching on to something takes some of the stress away. Although, today, I resolved to drink water whenever I feel like eating. Hope it helps though.

How about you? Are there any roadblocks you encountered when you’re trying to lose weight? How did you overcome it? Feel free to share!